ConFuzzLed ~

A million things racing through my mind
Not knowing the way to go
Everything coming back all together at once
Old memories sparking into life..
Another storm to look forward to
Wondering how it is going to turn out this time

Broken Strings ~

When something which was everything to you then, pops back into the present, why do you get this weird feeling. Is it a feeling of hope?..resentment?..or the spark of old feelings coming back to life? or is it a pang of jealousy to see it and feel it but not being able to have it? All that when you know you have something better than that in your hands, have you still not accepted the fact that you cant play with broken strings anymore? That you cant feel anything that your heart dont want to feel? ..Or is the feeling of hidden old memories coming back to life? You know how much it teared you up when you tried to hold on and and forgive to make it all okay, but it all kept coming back to you. Cant it simply be something which you look back on, smile and put away.. and hope and dream and laugh with what you have right now.

♥ ~

I love you ..
Hmm?
I love you (loudly)
Then why do you keep on hurting me?
'Cause ...







[note: this post is purely fictional]

Second Chances

Second chances. Do they exist ? How many people understand and value the benefit of a second chance? .. or do they just take it for granted, like some random little thing someone said to them..Sometimes, is the second chance really worth being given? Would they make the best use of it? .. how many of these second chances, do you need to give ? would the chances ever run out?

..how much would you tolerate for one person?

...complications!

this never seems to stop. is this how it should be or is this the way for me? i didn't do anything wrong this time, except follow my heart.if its so much of a crime .. then why does everyone keep saying "follow your heart and nothing goes wrong". i don't want to be dragged back into things i had nothing to do with.i am living my life, the way i want it.i have had enough of being used and manipulated and all that crap.for once in my life, i am happy with what i have got. i dont want anymore or anything else to spoil this for me. i am H.A.P.P.Y. i wont judge people by what they claim to have happened. because i have no proof to accuse anyone of a liar. if they lie, they'l get it back. what goes around comes around. dont drag me into shitholes i have nothing to do with. let me be as i am.if i get hurt, i will pick myself up and keep walking without looking back. i wont ask someone to help me through.never did i once ask to help me with anything.i dont intend to either. what goes on in my life goes on, no one else has a right to deprive me of what makes me happy. if it doesnt harm me. so .. let me be! and there is no need for anyone to make up any stories and spread it. thank you.

...i just hope its all worth this

*sigh* ..
i dont really feel like blogging but im here procrastinating ..AGAIN! exams .. in a couple of weeks and i FREAK OUT everytime i think of it, so im going to make a list .. Yes, i know such desperateness!
1. i love StoogleePooo
2. Exams freak me out
3. i want to live in a falhu rah for a week!
4. i hate the sound of silly dramatic crappy dhivehi songs
5. seagull rocks!
6. my birthday is coming soon .. but im not so excited.
7. some people are pathetic jerks.
8. taaaaaaaaan ... *dream*
9. im going to miss my little brother even if annoys the hell outta me
10. i need sleep sleep sleeeep!!

HaPpY NeW yEaR !!